I left for my assignment at the White House around mid August 1990.  I was just getting over my first real bout with epididymitis when I left Sacramento.  I was set to drive by myself all the way to DC with a stop over in Des Moines to visit with my mother and sister.  By the time I arrived in Des Moines the epididymitis was very severe once again and I was barely able to walk.  I had been taking antibiotics since May and as much Motrin as I could stand but it was back once again. 

     I first came down with the symptoms in May of 1990 after a two week national exercise testing continuity of government programs for relocation and survival of the presidency.  It was an extremely critical test of the full system including flying out a full staff to our remote testing facility.  It was a very busy two weeks and there was no privacy during this time for any of us.  I really didn’t start to show any serious symptoms until a few days after I returned and was actually in DC for my interview with the White House Communications Agency.  It started with a minor pain in my groin area that simply felt like I had pulled a muscle or something similar.  I worked out all the time running 5 days a week from 3-5 miles each time so I was pretty sure I twisted something.  

     By the time I had returned from DC the pain was extreme and I went to my unit physician’s assistant (PA) for treatment.  He examined me and found that my testicle on one side was very tender but not anything he had really seen before.  So to be on the safe side he prescribed some antibiotics for my symptoms.  Well not being one that likes to take drugs for unknown reasons I decided not to take them when he gave them to me on a Friday afternoon.   That was a major mistake because by the following Monday I could barely stand much less walk.  I managed to get dressed that Monday and go to the PA and told him the pain was much worse and he did a quick exam and found that the swelling had also become quite noticeable along with very painful when touched.  He was very mad I had not taken the medicine he gave to me and he personally put me in his own car to drive me to the near by Mather AFB where there was a base hospital and an urologist.  The urologist was familiar with the symptoms and quickly had it diagnosed as epididymitis giving me stronger antibiotics and more Motrin. He also set up an appointment at Travis AFB where there was regional military medical center with more expertise available for treatment and advice.   

     I went to Travis the following week to see my first of more to come female urologist I have to say the first couple was very hard for me to deal with since it was such a personal manner involving my testicles.   She went on to find that the infection had now spread to my prostrate as well and she prescribed more antibiotics that I was to be on for 4 weeks.  She went through a quick history for me of the past few weeks and told me something I had never heard before.  At the time I was 34 years old I should have known something about things like this I thought.  What she said was what every military urologist told me after that as well.  The most likely cause of the infection was dried sperm that never full ejaculated.  Her theory along with the rest was that due to the lack of opportunity to have sex for a few weeks and at my age men still do tend to dream about sex after going with out it for a while however it is not likely to ejaculate like a wet dream for a teenager so the sperm never comes out and can dry up clog the tube and get infected.   I was told then that sex for men my age is something that is natural and when not with your mate then it is natural and healthy to masturbate at some interval to keep your self healthy.  Knowing it was hard to do so when surrounded by men 24 hours a day 7 days a week she still made it clear that what ever normal sex was for me would have to be defined meaning if that was once a day or once a month there needed to be some routine to it.   

     I can tell you when I returned home and tried to explain to Susan what the doctor said she didn’t believe a single word nor would she even go back with me to the urologist to hear for her self.  However she was quick to confide with her friends and the family practice doctor she was seeing and she told me I had to be making it up as a means to get sex from her.  She had often with held sex from our relationship as a way to punish me for various things mostly for working late and so many hours on weekends.  However in Sacramento that had not often been the case I was home most of the time, only gone for short periods of time maybe once a quarter and worked a normal day most of the time.  

     Well after the brief refresher of what was going on I was in Des Moines now and the pain was as intense as ever and I went to a local hospital and showed them my medical records and asked for a prescription refill of the antibiotics I was taking last.  That was done and I still had a lot of prescription strength Motrin for the pain and swelling. 

     When I arrived at the White House Communications Agency on 15 August 1990 I was feeling a little better but far from 100% and needed to go back to the doctor.  When I went on sick call they referred me to Bethesda Naval Hospital where once again I was told the most likely cause was due to the abstinence of sex.  I was given a 6 month profile from heavy lifting and physical exercise to give my body a chance to heal and I also stayed on the antibiotics for 6 months as well.   

     During this time I was not allowed to travel with the President because of the profile limits of heavy lifting. I was quickly making enemies in the operations branch because of the profile that limited my travel and normally every officer was on the road with in the first 30 days.  However I was lucky. The commanding officer at the time called me into his office to find out why I was not traveling and of course I told him.  He was very sympathetic because he too once suffered from what I was going through but in his case it was much more sever than mine. He was nearly castrated from his bout with epididymitis.  He also knew it was coming from the lack of sex so that put me very high up on his list of men he could trust and believe. 

     Now of course things in the sex department were not good at all because Susan was still in Sacramento until the end of November of 2000. Leaving me alone to take the advice of all the urologists and I needed to develop a routine for sex with out my wife which of course only meant one thing masturbating once again like a teenager.   This is embarrassing enough with out telling you how often I did it a month to stay healthy.   

     I was having a very hard time finding a place to move my family to with my duty schedule, the price of homes and the requirements Susan had given me to find a place for her to live.  I finally found a small place about 45 miles outside of DC in Maryland a little place called Newburg what a horrible mistake that turned out to be for every reason.  

     I finally choose that place because after looking for 3 months I found nothing with in our budget being a single income family that had a swimming pool and Susan had insisted that I find a place with a pool.  It was a smaller house than the one we had in Sacramento and yet still cost about $30,000 more than we had paid for that house in Sacramento.   The good news was it set on 1 acre of land and the pool was a large 20’x 40’ in ground pool.   I had no idea what a nightmare any of would be until we had been there a while. 

     Susan finally got the home sold in Sacramento and we made $40,000 on the deal. Property values in that area were increasing in my neighborhood at a rate just over $1,000 a month even more than my mortgage payments were.  When I left to go to DC I made the first major financial mistake of my marriage with Susan and more than likely a fatal one to our marriage as well. I left the responsibility to pay bills with Susan. Prior to this time I had always taken care of paying the bills and managed to keep our heads above water.  With the sale of the house in Sacramento we should have had enough money to pay off all our credit cards so when we got to DC the only bills we should have had were for the new car I bought for Susan in May of 1990, our motor home and our mortgage.  However Susan had her own theory for paying bills that of course didn’t work with in the guidelines of the creditors and to this day it still makes her mad because they would not accept a payment every other month or maybe every 3 months when she could afford or remember to pay them.  I did manage to get them all paid back in December of that month and still had $20,000 that I used to put in a CD and buy a small truck for myself to commute to DC in.  I still had to leave the responsibility to pay bills with Susan since I was hardly ever going to be home on or even near pay days and we all know how important it is to pay bills on time.  All of us that is except Susan she still tried to prove her theory of not paying bills on the dates due and of course in time that got way out of hand and I didn’t find out again until almost time to retire. This was the first time her mother and her started to push for us to file bankruptcy to clean the books for us.  However I still had a nest egg of mutual funds saved up as well as the house in Washington for money so I refinanced the house in Washington and cashed in a lot of mutual funds and once again paid off our debt just prior to retirement in 1994. I could never convince either Susan or her mother that I never wanted to file bankruptcy and I also thought it to be criminal to simply borrow more money with the intention of simply filing bankruptcy some day.  Susan also got very mad at me when I got mad when I found out how much in debt we were and how high our monthly payments had gone up as well as the balances simply due to late fees and extra interest rates charged because of non payments.  She felt it was her money and she should spend it on dance classes and recreation first and what ever was left over could go to pay the bills each month, never having enough of course to pay the monthly bills she would pay about half each month or all the bills every other month, doing nothing more than digging us into a deeper debt.  I also years later found out during the time frame of 1990 – 2000 that she was obtaining more and more credit cards to meet her names and was simply signing my name to the applications to get the cards. 

     With hind sight now I know I should have never left her with the responsibility to pay the bills but when I first discovered the problem in 1990 when she arrived in DC with me she was furious at me for implying that she could not handle the responsibility and it became a major fight so I gave in and left her with the money.  That was a fatal error on my part. 

     Enough of the personal for now except to say that my lack of sex problem got critical once we were in DC. I was on the road nearly 3 weeks out of every 4 I was assigned to the White House.  If I was not on the road my hours were murder. My first assignment was as the Deputy Commander of the Audio Visual Unit supporting the President and Vice President.  I was responsible for hundreds of Presidential events around the world during my 18 months in this job.  The responsibility followed me even when I was on the road or assigned to military schools if something went wrong anywhere with an event I was called to explain what happened or to come up with a solution.  One example was during the spring of 1991 I was attending a 5 week course out of Norfolk, VA at the Armed Forces Staff College.  The Queen of England was visiting the White House and they gave her a full State welcome ceremony.  It was quite a show on the south lawn of the White House.  However when she got up to speak behind the Presidents podium President Bush who normally would pull out the step when some one shorter than himself did not pull out the step for her this time.  It was world wide news all about how the 3 microphones that were used at the time hid her face the whole time she was talking.  I was called out of my class in Virginia to start working on a solution and prepare an explanation to congress as to why this happened.   

     Talk about ridicules there was not much I could do about it at the time except talk to the non commissioned officer in charge back in DC and have him start working out a solution to the problem.  We of course got a lot of help from different congress men and senators around the country. Their problem was we were using microphones made in Japan and their solutions were several different microphones made by their constituents.  They had no consideration as to the ease of operation and quality we needed to support the President around the world with 100% perfect sound every time he got behind a microphone.  I prepared many responses to congress explaining the cost of replacement of thousands of microphones as well as the need to have microphones that did not use batteries. Some batteries are simply too hard to find in some of the remote locations that our Presidents like to travel to and we are required to support.  The solution came out to be extremely simple and is still used to this very day.  When I returned from Virginia the NCO in charge showed me his solution it was simply two microphones instead of three. The three microphone solution was a left over for several years when we use to have a requirement to provide one direct feed from the podium to the press. That requirement went away the day after President Reagan made his infamous remark about launching missiles at the former Soviet Union. From that day on the press got their feed through us and we only gave them remarks intended for the public.  So I quickly briefed the commander of the White House Communications Agency on the solution and he approved it and requested that I brief the Director of the Military Office and the White House Chief of Staff as well. It was very quickly approved and it actually increased our spare microphone inventory by 1/3 as well.   

     Things at home were somewhat stabilized during the first 18 months nearly every thing I did at work was unclassified unlike the job in Sacramento where every thing was classified Top Secret Code Word.  I could tell Susan every thing I did most of the time and where I was going as well as what I’d be doing there. I was also able to call her every day at least once a day to talk.  She was doing pretty well at keeping things going at home as well. The house was clean about 95% of the time that is good with 3 kids and being by your self.  Either she finally accepted the fact that after I was gone for 10-20 days at a time I wanted to be alone with her for some intimacy or she simply got lonely her self but sex was okay when I was home and she didn’t get mad because I wanted to be with her the fist night I was home either.  Most people would think that is normal for a married couple when one has been gone for days or weeks at a time to make love the first chance they were alone but not Susan.  In time for her it was punishment to me to deny me sex.  I have read in the news this past year where a husband was suing his wife for abuse because she denied him sex for 5 nights in a row. In time with Susan I could do that standing on my head it was not uncommon for her to make me go for 5 weeks and sometimes 5 months before she’d reluctantly give in to my desire to be with her. 

     My next job was not one I had volunteered for once again. I was assigned yet another command.  I was given Command of a new unit in charge of all the off site units in WHCA.  Our primary mission was extremely classified and not many out side of my unit was ever given the need to know the exact nature of our missions.  Even some of the equipment we had was classified beyond the need to know except by the commander and deputy commander of WHCA.  If I was not gone supporting a Presidential visit somewhere in the world I was gone inspecting my units around the United States or various other locations around the world.  Susan totally gave up at this point in April of 1992.  She stopped keeping the house clean except in rare occasions it was not uncommon for me to return home after a trip of 2 weeks and find every dish in the house dirty and left where it was last used and every article of clothing dirty as well.  She totally devoted her time now to the girls and their dance classes and the studio where they took their classes. She was so obsessed with the girl’s classes it was not at all uncommon for the 3 of them to spend nearly 50 hours a week there.  Dance classes and recitals took priority over school work and family vacations.  I was to try and schedule my leave time around these classes and recitals as well as the needs of the President and my covert mission requirements around the world as well.  It was during this time as well that Susan never went on a family vacation with us at all with out taking a friend of hers along as well.  Meaning of course less time for her and I to be alone and intimate.  She was not working out side of the home but full expected me to come home and do 100% of the house work as well.  My missions even the support of Presidential visits around the world kept my work week around 70 hours a week. By the time I did get home I was exhausted and had no energy to work the whole time cleaning up while they were out playing somewhere.  Of course that many dance classes did not come cheaply either. This is where Susan started to get really carried away with credit cards to keep up with not only the cost and expenses directly related to the hours of classes and recital costumes and shoes but eating out and all the gasoline it would cost to go back and forth several times a day.  Even when I was working out of DC my hours were murder on me with a commute that would take anywhere from 2-3 hours each way. I would spend on average 5 hours a day driving and 12 hours a day at work.  It doesn’t take a doctor to understand where my energy level was when I was at home.  By now of course masturbation was more the norm than intimacy with Susan it became an obsession with her to teach me that the urologist were wrong and I could go indefinitely with out sex.  It was at this same time I first suspected Susan was having an affair it was not only her attitude towards me and sex but when we did have sex nearly 80% of the time I would contract some sort of fungal infection on my penis and testicles every single time. I would get all red and very sore and have to go to the White House medical unit for anti fungal cream shortly after any time we had intercourse.  I never said anything mostly because I did not want to get into a fight with her about it there is not a more stubborn woman on earth that Susan and she is one of the world’s best liars as well on top of that. She would often tell my children to lie to her parents about different things because she would tell them they would not understand.  Susan would get mad at me when I did not tell my mother everything that was going on because we wanted to spare her some bad details at time due to her health at least I never lied to my mother I simply would make her believe every thing was all right most of the time so not to cause her to have a serious health problem.  There was certainly enough circumstantial evidence at the time to think Susan was seeing another man at the time what with the rashes I would get when I was with her and the way she was gone from home 12-14 hours a day and the way the house was kept and how she kept pushing me further and further away from her. 

     In time I finally gave up and like most adults started reacting in the same way she was, like a child.  I stopped doing anything at all around the house when I was home I didn’t see the point any more since I was the only one doing it any way.  The swimming pool she insisted on having to move to DC could not be swam in anymore it was full of fungi and filthy all time she simply didn’t want to clean it anymore and expected me to clean it for her and the kids.  She refused to either make the kids help around the home or let me make them clean up after themselves either.  She would argue in front of the kids with me on how I would rather be at work than at home with her or the kids and how kids were not put on this earth to be my personal slaves and clean up houses for me.  If I wanted a clean house then I should clean it.  To be honest with you at this particular time I accepted this all because I was still in love with Susan and I simply didn’t know it wasn’t suppose to be like this. There have been times since my arrest in 2000 that many have made me believe this not only normal behavior from a woman but is perfectly acceptable as well as a way to punish a husband that works too much.  

     Susan never understood the responsibilities I carried while in the Army. A commanding officer is responsible for everything that a man assigned does or doesn’t do as well as the mission of the unit.  The responsibilities I carried as a commander at the White House were extremely critical to national security and the safety of the President. Not something I could take lightly or work a personal schedule around most of the time. The biggest problem I believe for Susan during this time was we were not living around other military families that were all going through the same things she was while I was assigned to the White House.  Her friends were every day people where most couples either both worked or in some cases some divorced women and single mothers.  She gravitated towards that group of single women more mostly because the others were too busy with work or their families to go out and play as often as Susan would like to play.  I was gone working so much she took on the role of a divorce / single woman and grew very accustomed to her life style that way and also enjoyed the freedom from responsibility of being a wife and homemaker as well.   

     I know most of you would dearly love to hear some of the stories of my missions at the White House but I am not a liberty to discuss the majority of them even to this day. They are still classified and will remain so until the President de classifies them. I can tell you that they had to do with the Shadow Government that was only first acknowledged after 911 and most members of congress are still not cleared in the details of such missions and requirements still to this day.  I also was given access to many of our closest allies continuity of government plans and relocation centers as well as many treaties that were coordinated by me to ensure communications between our President and these same allies in the event of a world wide crises such as war or an even such as 9-11.   Not only the lives of the people of the United States depend on my ability to keep these secrets but the lives of our allies depend on it as well.  This too is a responsibility that I do not take lightly and a major factor for me pleading guilty in 2000 in order to preserve these secrets simply because the DA in San Diego knew full well the scope of my mission if not the details and knew my concern for his media circus that surrounded my case could well expose Presidential relocation locations if he could keep me and my White House Duties as front page news.   

     My last assignment at the White House was no less responsible than the command.  My last duty assignment was as the Director of the White House Communications Agency Emergency Actions office.  It was at this time I received even more access to continuity of government operations across the board for the Executive Branch of the Government. My covert missions increased and now took on even a more world wide role.  I spear headed the first change in the National Emergency Broadcast System in the history of the system.  Those changes that I started in 1993-1994 have just come to reality since 9-11.  That along with many relocation centers and operation plans would have just started to come on line in the past 5 years as well.  Keep in mind as I traveled doing this missions I rarely if ever represented my myself as from the White House or any of the reasons for my presence in the areas I would go.  I was involved in every single aspect of the development of these plans and locations not simply if there was an operational telephone there or not.  Many details were done very slowly so as to not get any attention as to the motive of our presence in the area.  Nothing was done quickly in any way shape or form but often would take 5-10 years to fully develop a relocation center so no one would ever suspect the reason for what was being done.   If we flew on commercial airlines we would fly to one location then drive 200 – 300 miles to our actual destinations to throw off any clue as to our final destination.  I even showed up the last month I was in the Army to a trip site in England one night and my own boss was surprised at my being there.  He kept asking me what I was doing there and how I got there and all I could tell him was to either ask the commander or the President because I was not cleared to tell him what he had no need to know.  He never liked those answers but at the same time he could not keep a secret either because he refused to understand that everyone did not need to know what he was given access too. He was one of those people that tried to impress others by telling them the secrets he was given either directly or by some stupid code that would always give it away to any one clever enough to know him. 

     It was during this last job I knew full well that if I was to ever recover the damage done to my marriage by my jobs I needed to retire and to retire soon.  I was blessed in the fact that I had 19 years of active service and President Clinton was doing a major down size of the military during this time as well.  They were letting members go with full retirement with only 15 years of service.  I applied and the Army told me they would fight it they were short men of my grade level, experience and security clearance level and could not let me go. I knew they would never succeed since it was by direction of the President to let men go that volunteered first.   I retired with just over 19 years of active service and just a couple months shy of a full 20 years of total reserve and active service combined.   

     What I was unaware of was it was too late to salvage my family and my marriage.  Susan loved the life of a single woman or rather a part time wife more than she did me, our family or our marriage.  I had just given up my career in the Army for no reason at all.  My goal was to get out of DC as soon as possible and try to form a family once again in another location where they would have to depend on each other I had hoped long enough to draw us closer to each other but as fate would have I looked for 9 months for a job outside of DC and towards the west coast with out a single interview.  Just one month before I started my terminal leave I found a job right next door to the White House as telecommunications project coordinator and manager for the telecommunications branch of the United States Treasury.

     I have been questioned a few times in the past 5 years as to why on my professional web site and my book web site I have all my military evaluations posted with the exception of the White House years.  It appears to some that since I retired from the Army when I left the White House and I did not post these particular evaluations that something must have gone wrong with my military career there and I am hiding something.  Nothing could be further from the truth.  All I have from then to show or prove what I did and how well it was done is my retirement video that you can view by clicking this link:  http://jwdavissolutions.com/Videos/retirement.rm  

     What happened to the majority of my White House records is that the Sheriff’s department in Bonner County Idaho seized them when I was arrested in San Diego in March of 2000.  Exactly like the deputy DA in San Diego had to admit in court there Bonner County could find no evidence what so ever that I ever solicited children on the Internet or ever once acted in any way harmful to children what so ever.  The facts they found were that I in fact had dozens if not over a hundred children that stayed at my house on a regular basis.  I am not saying that they all stayed overnight at once but over the course of several years with my children growing up they all had their friends staying over nearly every single night from about 1991 -2000 when I was arrested.  They even discovered on many occasions I was the only adult in the home with the children sometimes as many as a dozen young girls ranging in age from 8-18 and the fact was most felt safer in my home than any other place they would go. Of course neither prosecutor in Bonner County or San Diego would have wanted those facts coming out in a court room. There were a several times during that time frame that I would take my children and their friends often just 3 or 4 of us on camping trips together again being the only adult present during the camping trips.  There was one time I took my two teenage daughters in 1999 to a Hot Spring resort in Canada and their two friends along.  We all stayed in a house I rented there for a couple of nights.  When we crossed the border from Idaho to Canada the Canadian border police asked many questions as to why I was taking these girls across the border as the only adult.  However I had permission slips from the girl’s parents and they were also so close to my daughters and our family I considered them my own daughters as often as they were with us.  I had to explain to the girls once we crossed the border why the questions were asked and I told them a little about child molesters at that time.  Like me they too thought it was gross to even think of that. These girls like every single child I ever met trusted me based completely on my actions that they observed first hand day in and day out.   

     The White House records including which were all unclassified including emails were kept by the Bonner County Sheriff’s office in spite of two court orders to return them to my x-wife since I was never allowed by San Diego to travel much out of a 3 county area these past 5 years.  The sheriff’s office decided they had the right to keep these files and records that in no way what so ever could help their case if released but in fact could help them in time determine not only my White House responsibilities but could if they were clever enough in reviewing my travel records start to locate Top Secret relocation centers for the President, the Secretary of Defense, and the Joint Chief’s of Staff.  The FBI and military intelligence can determine their motives for that based on the area and the militia’s motivation for that information.  Before I was arrested in San Diego there would have been no question by the FBI for that area of Idaho to want those files and records. However now based on their own prejudices because of the type of charges filed against me the truth of my past and what exactly happened during that time was of no significance to the branch of investigators in charge at the time.  The fact is by that prejudicial behavior they may well have compromised dozens of Top Secret continuity of government locations and programs in the past 5 years this department has held these records and may have released too many in the area and around the country.  They had no legal right to the files as proven by the two court orders to release them.  The fact is that Detective Burke when last confronted by my x-wife about the release and the court orders point blank told her that he would release them but then go back to the home and seize yet more articles and keep going back until we ran out of money to fight him in court.  It would appear that is a cold hard fact I have learned in the past 5 years on every level of the justice system in this country from the legal issues surrounding the charges I faced in 2000 to later when the system alienated me so much from my x-wife that she too was willing to lie about financial situations regarding me and her time with me in the military during divorce proceedings and bankruptcy hearings and rulings that she too would lie in court and statements to gain even more support and property of mine.  The fact is she kept over 97% of our joint property. She and her attorneys at first made outrageous statements of my support to her and our children that were out right lies.  At the early stages I could afford an attorney to represent me in the court in Idaho and when they were confronted with cancelled checks and black and white prove of the facts they would simply vacate the court proceedings and drag them on and on. Eventually of course exactly like prosecutors they knew I would run out of money for an attorney to produce these facts in court.  Shortly after my attorney petitioned the divorce judge to be released from the case because I could no longer afford to pay him to represent me they rushed into court to state their own stories.  They clearly had the facts as my attorney handed them over to Susan’s attorney they clearly feared these facts coming out in court because as they reviewed them they knew full well that their story to court would be proven hands down as lies and deceptive.  However with the restrictions of my probation, the probation department I was assigned to since late 2002, the cost of travel to Idaho and proper representation they simply went to court and presented what they knew to be fully false information. The judge of course then ordered judgment against me in every single detail since I could not even be there to represent myself.  Susan along with the sheriff’s department in Bonner County and her attorneys clearly understood there is no justice with out the money to prove it.  They also thought that these records would never come to light since they had seized most of them and Susan her self kept what was left.  They didn’t county on the fact they were public records and in time I could and did regain copies of them from the Army and other sources.  She even lied about money we borrowed from her parents to purchase a home in Washington in 1982.  We borrowed $10,000 from her parents at the time to buy the home and she told the courts during bankruptcy proceedings for her self and during the divorce that we never paid them back and asked for judgments against me on that.  The fact is I did pay them back at the rate of $50.00 a month for a couple of years then $100.00 a month every single pay check was issued by the department of the Army to her father over the course of 11 years that Susan thought she had the only records for.  I have regained these records and of courts the Department of the Army Finance record can also confirm every single payment in those 11 years.  Another fact about that money is I over paid her father by $2,000 that I asked him to keep for us until I really needed it.  Susan had a very bad habit of spending money as soon as she discovered it.  He returned the $2,000 shortly after we moved to Idaho upon my request.  I am sure that the courts never asked him about the money but simply took every thing Susan and her attorneys said as facts since no one was ever present in court to state or prove differently.  I know her father well enough to know he would never lie in court not only because of the type of man I knew him to be but he would also open himself up to income tax fraud based on the fact that he never claimed the money sent to him as income on his tax returns because it was repayment of a loan. 

     The cold hard truth of the mater I have discovered the past 5 years is that anyone will lie in court and those that did lie against me actually hoped at some point I would give up and take my own life not only because of the shame they kept dealing out to me but the absolute ruin they were continually causing me.  You can determine for your self what the truth is once the book is completed.  I will state a few facts not yet released and I know none of the other sides in either state would want released but can be if requested.  I passed every single lie detector test ever given to me proving I was telling the truth about the set ups and my actions with the police and children through out my life time.  I was forced to under go several examinations by psychiatrists over the first couple of years that clearly stated that I was a normal white male with no risk what so ever of being a pedophile.  My question of the system is simple at this point if 100% of the actual evidence proves I am telling the truth and there is something seriously wrong with the other side of the story why would they never be asked or ordered to under go lie detector tests or exams.  It to me would seem the right thing to do but of course we all know that the police are protected as are the prosecutors by unions and the system from having their statements challenged in such a direct manner.  I think it would be required after so many actual facts about my case, my background, and the exams of all types being absolutely constant that a federal court would order such exams.   

     I know full well the purpose behind Bonner County and Susan both keeping the records as would the right branch of the FBI would also know if they were ever brought into the investigation.  I also know full well why the San Diego police with the knowledge of my attorney there destroyed all the real evidence the very day the judge ordered all my property released to me and my release from jail on my own recognizance.  The fact it that matter is they knew full well the printed chats and emails they produced to the courts had been edited the best they could in the time they had them to show that I was some sort of super monster pedophile. They also fully knew with out any doubt that I could call on resources used by the federal government to pull the real facts off my computers and prove not only did they present tainted evidence but they failed to produce 100% of the evidence and then later even disregarded a court order to release the documents.  I had been telling my attorney since we first met what was going on and that I wanted him to get a court order to have the actual computers used tested and it could be easily proven that they had edited several files, he also knew my fear of the media circus damaging and compromising Top Secret “Shadow Government Programs” The police also knew my fears since I never once was allowed in the 60 days I was in jail to have a private conversation with my attorney. I was forced 100% of the time to communicate to him over the jail inmate’s phone system where 100% of the conversations are recorded.  The police in theory are forbidden to use the information gained in these conversations between a client and his attorney against the suspect, but as adults we have got to understand that the information they gain about the suspects conversation can and are used to the prosecutors favor.  In plain English the DA in San Diego clearly knew and heard me discuss with my attorney my fear of Top Secret programs being compromised by his media circus regarding my case he would increase it based on my fears and statements, he also knew my concerns for the way Bonner County and the media were treating my family in Idaho.  My adult children were arrested because they had nothing to say against me my youngest daughter who was only 14 at the time was forced to undergo some of the grossest questioning over and over again by not only the police in Bonner County but the school officials as well.  They may not have been directly physically torturing me but they knew full well they were forcing me to no alternative but to make a false confession if I wanted to preserve national security and the safety and sanity of my children.  Detective Burke deliberately showed Susan his copy of false evidence to alienate her from me and supporting me.

     It is not only the free fire attitude of the police in California that are clearly UN constitutional based on our guaranteed to be protected from excessive use of force. Adults clearly have to see that the use of guns against unarmed citizens including children is a violation of that guarantee the police and prosecutors are also free to lie at any length in court as well with out any fear of retribution of any kind. In short we are not on the way to becoming a police state where mind crimes can be prosecuted and the Constitution no longer defends us, ladies and gentlemen we have all ready arrived to that police state. 

     My hope once I am out of California by the end of 2005 is that I can seek justice in the federal courts in another state with out fear of retaliation by the police and courts in California or Idaho for exposing their injustices, their criminal disregard for court orders, their criminal intent to discover continuity of government programs, their criminal torture of my children and my self over the past 5 years, and their criminal perjury in editing evidence in courts and out right lies in courts.  I also intend to show where my attorney failed to represent me as well and his personal involvement with child protection groups as well as his personal goal to see that I paid a price for what I was accused of regardless of the facts in the case.  There is no way what so ever that I can obtain justice in California while I am still located in California with out fear of great physical harm or imprisonment and torture to my self and family again.  With out money there simply is no way to defend your self or protect yourself from the brutality of system here.